BUCKET LIST.

(I realized I am living a very mediocre life. To get of this mediocrity, I have to aim high. So, I have made a list.)



Have an art exhibition with my work
Travel Italy, France, Spain, Portugal, England, and Germany [W. Europe]
Travel Turkey, Greece, Egypt, Morocco
Publish a book of poetry
Be very very healthy
Learn to sew my own clothes
Quit Coffee (now this is a maybe...)
Buy a DSLR
Go to a 7-10 day meditation camp in India

NUMB.

[I had a dream today which painted for me the harsh reality]

Awkward silences
coffee cups brimming
spilling over the white cloth
I see you talking to a somebody
a little interesting, more beautiful
I look from the corner of my eye
Feeling numb, I watch
not threatened, not nothing
I am just numb.
Forgetting to wake.

But, alas
it was only a dream
or a episode
from my reality.
I cannot decipher that.




....and thanks to this somewhat ridiculous dream where I saw snippets of nothings and everythings, I was late to class.

INNER BEAUTY TRUMPS OUTER BEAUTY

UNNOTICED BEAUTIFUL (?)

who cares about the cookie-cutter pretty?
why some "beauty" off of a conveyor belt?

i like the different beauty...
i like when someone is a little too quirky, a little too off-beat, a little too strange
odd mixes of races, disturbed mixes of personalities
because everyone is bored by the "beautiful monotony".

DEAR DIARY,

Today went from okay to bad to worse. What! I want to let out my stress into cyberspace now. So I need a job. Fuck. I am bored in my classes. Great.

That's how I felt today--

Positive attitude and head up, I know.

On the plus side,
I cleaned my ridiculously dirty car and now it's sexy and beautiful.
I made tutoring posters. (knock on wood--Someone hires me)
I bought black skinny jeans that fit.

Look! Tomorrow's a new day! Thank goodness!

I DARE YOU TO THINK.

I write because I am curious
but then didn't curiosity kill the cat?

MY LOVE.

when i will love you,
love will run through my veins
my veins intertwining against your heart
our heartbeats dancing together
at the beats of passion.
i will say i love you
never just once
but when i stare into your soul
to find peace.
may i never need you
to breathe
to think
to laugh.
maybe we're not soulmates
maybe we're just travelers
on this transient path of love
when i walk up and you walk down
i will say 'good bye' without a tear
for we had moments
of laughter
of peace
of pain
you will help sculpt me
into a better being
like the others have.
i will love you
till fate tells me so.